This just keeps happening to me
whenever I go home. That doesn't mean I don't love seeing my family
but I just don't seem to fit in anymore it's weird.
Having one day with them is enough for
me to catch up and see them again and after that I just miss my
flatmates. The place where I grew up is not home for me anymore. I
grew up there and I still enjoy coming back but home is with my
friends and my flatmates now. I consider this new town I live in home
but this little village still means a lot to me and will most
certainly always be a part of me. I mean I grew up here how couldn't
it be but I kinda outgrew it.m
Back when I was younger this little
village used to be enough for me but now it's just so small at least
for me.
Like my sister would come back every
other weekend and hang out here but even if I could afford that ( she
lives closer to where we grew up then I do) I still don't think I
would do it. Okay lets be honest I'm sure I wouldn't do it. I just
don't need it that much. I call my mum every now and then and that's
fine, that's all we need. And when I'm here we go out for a drink and
catch up. We are really close even though we don't see each other all
the time. I would even say that I'm this close with my mum because I
don't see her that much. Maybe I enjoy the moments we do have
together more or maybe it is just the fact that this way she doesn't
get enough time to go all crazy on me. And by crazy I mean all that
annoying stuff that mums do which I'm pretty sure everyone knows lol.
If not can we switch mums?
Just kidding my mum is the best.
Growing up she used to let me do all kinds of crazy things and just
always said that I had to make my own mistakes and that she couldn't
stop me from getting hurt most of the time anyways. She could just
warn me about things but whether I did them or not would always be up
to me. And if I did get hurt she was there for me and I never once
heard my mum say: I told you so. So she was pretty amazing but back
then I didn't really know that but know I have really come to
appreciate all the things my mum has done for me. For example my mum
stop driving me around when I was 12 and told me that all the place I
couldn't get to with my two legs, a bus, a train or my bike I didn't
have to go to. Obviously at that time I thought she was the crulest
mum every but it tought me that I could figure things out myself.
That I didn't need my mum to organise everything for me or to drive
me around, I learned that I was capable of doing that myself. And all
the times where she would still pick me up somewhere meant a lot to
me. I figured out that my mum wasn't my taxi and that she had other
things to do then driving me and my sister around. One thing that is
probably worth mentioning is the fact that I live in a small village
and there is a lot of busses and stuff and most of the walking
distances aren't to bad either. So I really was fine on my own. And
if I wanted to go out at night my dad would come with his bike and
pick me up although I'm pretty sure that nothing would have happened
if I would have gone home by myself.
My mum always tried to raise us so we
would be able to live our own lifes when the time to move out came.
And it might sound harsh but my mum told us that if we would go to
university we had to move out. She would not let us live with her
anymore because she wanted some time without kids even if that meant
that she had to pay for our flat and everything else. So that is
exactly what we did: move out and she is paying for our rent now.
Cause as a student your not really able to pay for everything by
yourself. That's just how it is.
My mum has always supported us with our
decisions even if they were completely bonkers :D And if that was the
case we would just laugh about it afterwards together :)
So I am pretty thankful for everything
my mum did and still is doing. She is amazing and I don't think I
tell her that often enough.
So everyone go to your mum give her a
hug and tell her you love her because she deserves to know that.
x
J.
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